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the dance of life and death
the ego shaker

primitive, natural, vital
smacking our plastic world in the face
thoughts of self vanish
majestic in every way

I celebrate Sex

the dance of life and death


The last lost children
run through autumn woods
crunching leaves
unaware that they are the last generation
unable to breed
no one to guide them
all they perceive is ancient
forgotten wisdom
symbols of a meaningless age gone by

play children
be free while life pulsates through your bodies
soon you too will be forgotten
and the world will continue to rotate


dovetail joints flying through my mind
naked points frying in the sea of time
standing on broken lights and forgotten dreams
after all I have no clue what life may mean

It’s all empty
It’s all empty
Meaningless dribble of the insane

Sister Mary Knuckle Rules you
Measure your eyes to see what you’ll do
everyone waiting for a sunny someday
I’d much rather take a rainy today

It’s all empty
It’s all empty
meaningless dribble of the insane

Connect the dots on your arms
See the place where your face is drawn
cover yourself with mad cow superstition
If you knew your book we’d have no need for religion

It’s all empty
It’s all empty
meaningless dribble of the insane


Two columbian sisters
one dressed in Communist Red and Black
the other dressed in pacifist white and black
both with angelic bodies
night sky hair
passion potion smiles

they bring me into a clean white room
only two black chairs
they kiss
feel each others breasts
show off each others bodies
stripping down
I move towards them
lust sparkling eyes
immediately they pull down my pants
one kissed my lips
the other dropping to her knees
slowly taking me into her mouth

they spoke in misused tones
heavy breathing
fingers all over my body
my penis never leaving a wanting mouth for too long

they both got on the black couch
asses up
faces towards the wall
with enjoyment I took them
sliding in and out of one
then repeating with the other

the smell of carnal sex filled the air
human voices distorted into animalistic growls
until climax came
bringing us back to our senses


So kara and I have decided to become just friends which I am excited about because I think we would make great friends. Of course we will take it in baby steps and see where it leads. She has asked me to think of some boundaries and as I sit and think my mind is drawing a complete blank. I’m sure something will come up but the only thing I’m going to ask is that we are open and honest with one another about everything. Other than that the chips will land wherever they will. If anyone has any suggestions of what I should make as a boundary please let me know.


Some interesting types of relationships

Open Relationship-is a relationship in which the participants are free to have emotional and/or physical relationships with other partners, often within mutually agreed limits. If a couple in an open relationship are married, it can be called an open marriage.

Open marriage- typically refers to a marriage in which the partners agree that each may engage in extramarital sexual relationships, without this being regarded as infidelity.

Cavalier Servente-was the professed gallant and lover of a married woman, who attended her at public entertainments, to church and other occasions and had privileged access to his mistress.

Cohabitation- is an arrangement whereby two people decide to live together on a longterm or permanent basis in an emotionally and/or sexually intimate relationship. The term is most frequently applied to couples who are not married.

Concubinage- is the state of a woman in an ongoing, usually matrimonially-oriented relationship with a man who cannot be married to her, often because of a difference in social status.

domestic partnership- is a legal or personal relationship between two individuals who live together and share a common domestic life but are neither joined by marriage nor a civil union.
* group marriage (also termed polygynandry), in which several people form a single family unit, with all considered to be married to one another
* group sex and orgies involving more than two participants at the same time
* infidelity, such as an affair, in which one or more participants fails to comply with expectations of monogamy in a relationship.
* Line families, a form of group marriage intended to outlive its original members by ongoing addition of new spouses
* ménage à trois, a sexual (or sometimes domestic) arrangement involving three people
* polyamory, in which participants have multiple romantic partners
* PolyFamilies, similar to group marriage, but some members may not consider themselves married to all other members
* polyfidelity, in which participants have multiple partners but restrict sexual activity to within a certain group
* polygamy, in which one person in a relationship has multiple partners
* polyandry, in which women have multiple husbands
* polygyny, in which men have multiple wives
* plural marriage, a form of polygyny associated with the Latter Day Saint movement in the 19th-century and with present-day splinter groups from that faith. It is also associated with an evangelical splinter group which advocates Christian Plural Marriage

romantic friendship- refers to a very close but non-sexual relationship between friends, often involving a degree of physical closeness beyond that which is common in modern Western societies, for example holding hands, cuddling, and sharing a bed.

Platonic love- in its modern popular sense, is a non sexual, affectionate relationship.

Spiritual marriage- comes from the idea of “love without sex.” It is a practice in which a man and a woman live intimately without having any sexual relationship. It has been known throughout all cultures as a bond of a man and a woman with its only reason being the spiritual connection between the two and nothing more.

cuckold -is a married man with an adulterous wife.
cuckqueans- women with adulterous husbands
wittols -husbands who consent to their wife’s extramarital sex


As I sat at the car dealership reading The wise mind of Haile Selassie, I kept thinking of Kara and how it’s strange that I miss her when she is gone but when she is near I sometimes get frustrated with her and myself. Sometimes I even feel suffocated but I still care about her.
As luck would have it she called me later that day around 5:30 or so all excited about coming home with lots of fun filled stories and a tale of the future us personified in an old couple she met. Which made me smile,even laugh a little. I can’t wait for her to come home and tell me her tales and see were the path leads us. Though I am sure it will be as unconventional as our path has been up to this point.
As John Lennon ounce said:”As usual,there is a great women behind every idiot”. Yes,in many ways I am an idiot and she is a great woman,even though I am not sure if she realizes it yet.
I also find that I drink a lot more beer and soda when she is not around. I’m not sure why or even if the two are related. I’m sure they are in someway.

Tomorrow my parents are getting married after 25 years, its about time lol. In some ways my parents are the example of what not to do but in some ways they are an example of what to do. Through the years, and the heaps of dysfunction they truly love one another and will be together until they part from this place we happen to call Earth.
Being married,getting married still scares me in some ways. But, I hope I am as lucky as they have been to at least find that love that never dies. Sept 6,2010

A thought
I can see myself settling down and being a good and faithful husband but the thought of living with someone in some ways excited me and in other ways Scares me all at ounce. Only because I do enjoy my down time. Also, I know that the other person I have mind wants to have the illusion of freedom even if it is not so. How would this work? I am not sure. I too enjoy being free to pursue my own little world and being a musician and a writer I enjoy being by myself more than most people do. Sometimes hours and days will go by before I even desire to be near anyone. The creative process and my philosophical process (if we call it that) often takes long drawn out time which now I am being able to get balance time of me and the person or people I wish to be around.
This week of lone time has opened my eyes to a few new insights. That I enjoy looking being around this certain person more that I suspected and that I could happily spend my life with this person but the time just isn’t now. Tragic but true like one of those girly books you see on the bookshelf. Anyhew I will muddle this in my mind for a few more moments.Just finding the balance so we can both be happy all the time is the key. Sept 3, 2010

Missing Kara
It has only been a few days but I miss Kara like crazy. She is my best friend and my closest companion. I thought it would be easy to be without her presence but it seems more difficult than I thought it would be. Sept 1 2010

Kara: What makes you think that men are any better? A man might say that he respects a woman, but how can he truly respect any woman he can’t be honest with? Maybe your woman has tried to be as honest as she can with you, and it comes across as disrespectful, when in reality she just doesn’t know how you feel.

I don’t think men are all that better, and I can see how women can’t always know how men feel due to the fact that men are trained not to be emotional. If she is being honest then that’s all one can ask, maybe looking back I can see that. Life is just a toss up and we can only hope it all works out in the end. If not, then we must wipe the dust off of our backs and go forward.
You must keep in mind that I write from my own perspective because that’s the only way I can write. so if I seem like I’m bashing I’m not. I’m just writing as things appear to me. Hope this helps

( I’m not sure why I feel like posting this but I do, so here it is and man I sucked at writing i hope i have gotten better)


Who knows how long I’ve loved you
You know I love you still
Will I wait a lonely lifetime
If you want me to, I will.

For if I ever saw you
I didn’t catch your name
But it never really mattered
I will always feel the same.

Love you forever and forever
Love you with all my heart
Love you whenever we’re together
Love you when we’re apart.

And when at last I find you
Your song will fill the air
Sing it loud so I can hear you
Make it easy to be near you
For the things you do endear you to me
Oh, you know, I will
I will.

(normally I don’t post other peoples stuff but this song always reminds me of Kara, because it’s how I feel, cheers)


I will always love you
even with tears in my eyes
I will always love you
even with rocks under my feet

neither one of us is perfect
we do everything in reverse
still we make a rainbow
melody in a warped chorus


november fifth
freezing morning
Massasoit ground hard
purple, pinks, and dark blues fill the sky
swarm of bicycles race up and down the paved road
all through the unkempt woods
air stinging face
ice feet
still I walk towards the rising sun
embracing the coming day
feeding off the subtle warmth

gun shots in the distance
innocence is being lost
no one came
we just go about our dismal day
shrugging off tragedy that surrounds us
as long as I’m ok- it’s ok
as long as I’m alive- it’s ok